Life is beautiful and I still cry....

Mother Teresa was an incredible woman she loved life and loved others...I love how she had a place in India where the nuns and volunteers took care of people that were dying, they didn't want them to live longer they just wanted to die happy to improve their lives while they were alive. So they didn't buy medicines they just love them and have them die in a decent place full of love. What an amazing way to be a christian... Life is incredibly beautiful but i still cry, I cry because i wish i could do something to change the world, I cry cause pain is part of our lives and we have to deal with it, i cry because I've made mistakes i can't change or fix, but i live life and I still think it's beautiful....I', happy to be in this world and I'm happy that I cry. I'm happy that my heart breaks every time I hear a sad story or I see a kid on the street longing for love and some food, my heart breaks every time I want to change the world and I can't because I'm only one person. Life is beautiful and you will still cry but enjoy it cause that's what makes life worth to live!!!

I'm NOT a christian....

I'm reading this book "The Irresistible Revolution, living as an ordinary radical".... what a great book, Chapter 3 made me weep my ass off! Shane Claiborne writes about the ordinary radicals those who know what being a Christian is t do just what the Bible says....just what Jesus said..." Just have Christ come live IN you" (Gal. 2.20) So now my struggle is... how can I become a REAL Christian? Do I need to leave my comfort zone and let the Gospel mess me up??? I think it already did!! I've got to experience what LOVE means..God gave me the opportunity to open the eyes of my heart and find my passion, I'm not even close to be a Christian...not EVEN close but I'm starting to realize that i have to let Christ live in me. Mother Theresa what an incredible woman of God definitely a true Christian...she followed Jesus, she was Jesus for millions of people, yet she was humble, caring, loving, sweet, yes! she was Jesus and that made her special, that made her being a Christian. I want to be a Christian! I want to be an Ordinary Radical!!!